Big Belly fish

Omit the losing a hair clip part of my day in the swimming pool; I actually had an enjoyable time in the pool.

The traffic in the pool just as bad as usual evening period. Maybe, same to me, lot of people come to the pool straight from work as this community centre is surrounded with office buildings, or just because it’s summer vacation soon and more the school youth flow to the pool! Any way, it wasn’t bothering me much today.

I had joy time in the water, which was slightly feeling different than usual in the pool. I finally found that I connected to water…

I mean feel I was belonging in the water, instead of feeling that I might drown if I didn’t keep kicking my legs and swinging my hands.

I swam feely as I were a fish…

I wore the new white bikini today, so I had my whole belly dance with the water.

I feel great…
and I felt how great that is to be if I could turn my self into the amphibious in the summer….a kind of little fish doesn’t have gill but love to be in the water and on the land too.

I need to feel that I were a fish feeling for the summer…

A little fish with a round belly…. small fin, little tail… can’t swim well, either nor too fast in the water but love the “float-activity”!

I felt great in water today.
My skin could sense the water temperature, my ears could hear the sound under the water, and my brain starts to generate some thoughts along…

I didn’t think too much about how I have to swim or with a right posture, just let my hands and legs managing their own ways, then my mind went on other little something came out from my brain.

A girl was doing the backstroke slowly a head of me in the lane as I was with my breaststroke hitting the bubbles she kicked towards my face…. It was rally like doing the scuba diving in the reefs…or I was really turned into a fish with bubbles…. It all felt great!

A Brain Recorder. There is the Voice Recorder to record voices, when could a Brain recover to be invented?

I wish I can tape you what I am thinking now while I doing my swimming…so I don’t have to memorize all this before I forgetting it or have to squeeze out for what I have came up with the good ideas but wanted to put in words to share with you again.

A Brain recorder will be great…and I’d be more naked to you without really writing in words.

A good hair clip

I checked those stands around Teach Building Station on my way home, was wishing some might sell the kind of hair clip on their stands. But no luck!
I checked all sorts of hair clips on the stands; none of one seems good to me…
“Not easy to find a good hair clip again” I think.
Was it like….. hard to find a good boyfriend which suits me…
One day you had one and u lost it by carelessly. And what was I thinking?
Trying to find the same boyfriend back? Hell, no!!
Then what was I doing? Try to find the same hair clip back? Yes…
I though hair clip is a different thing. Although it dears to me the same!

Hair Clip

Can’t remember who had told me about not easy to find a good hair clip! Was it Russ or Grace? But I remember while the time they said this to me, I was very proud that I found this nice hair clip.. Made by sliver steel, decorated with pink, yellow, blue crystal stone on it. Very simple, user-friendly design! It was not too vulgar, either too showing off, it was just dainty and not too small or too big to hold up all my hair.
I had this hair clip each day, had it to work, for a date, for any occasion, even to the shower when I washed my hair I would click it right back to my hair…. I just love this hair clip and I could not believe that I lost it by forgetting it at the changing room L.

I thought I’d asked the cleaning lady again when I finished my changing and ready to go, I thought I saw the same cleaning lady here last Friday?! Or I wasn’t good at recognizing faces? She said she had last Friday off, she replied me. (Was she guilty!) I had this bad feeling came up….
Who else does care to turn my hair clip to the Lost and Found counter?! As a finder would notice this “someone has left her hair clip’ on the showering pipe, the finder must have loved this hair clip too, otherwise the hair clip would not been observed! So who does care that the owner of this hair clip would madly finding her little hair clip back? Or the finder might just thought it was not that pricey but pretty, so If the owner lost it, she wouldn’t be too sad for not having it back instead getting a new one, the finders keepers.

Over all, it just a hair clip?!
But it was a great hair clip to me!
it was a fine hair clip and I had it all the time.
But someone must have took it as she thought” it’s not a bad hair clip...!!” L

I began to think what if I might run into ’the someone’ who is wearing my hair clip..how would I react? Would that be just a hair clip which look a lot like my one or it is really mine one?
I don’t know.
She might say that she bought it. or it might be too resentfully to call someone a stealer!
I don’t know.
I still hope I find it back. And I am sure I can determine if it’s mine or not because I remember how my hair clip looks like and there was an inlay of crystals was missing from it.

Swimming Pool

I had to go swimming today, not just because I am trying to put swimming into my daily routine, as well because I was eager to know if someone has found my hair clip which I left on the shower pipe at the lady’s changing room.

I phoned to this community centre service desk last Friday as I found I left my favourite hair clip by the pool. I was hoping that the cleaning lady there might go get it for me and kept it at the Lost& Found for me. But I was quit disappointed today as I expect I might get it back from them.

A staff just opened 3 cabinet doors for me, and told me to take look in it myself.
Some people left their swimming caps, goggles, bathing kits; comb…some even left their shorts behind (wondering what he/she’s wearing to home), but none of my hair clip!

一盤吵雞蛋

I cam across a personally website of a boy while I was doing on my search of Kissing Gourami for the movie review on Shiri.

Printed out 25 pages of his day-to-day writings, found it was quite inspiring, and It seems amusing and have drew out my thoughts along my days too. I am glad that my thread of ideas in writing has back in the moment.

可恨之人必有可憐之處

可恨之人必有可憐之處，這卻也是造成我恨不下心的原因；
然而， 就是有這麼一個常常出現的偶而，
那些過往就會如烏雲般的壓住心頭。
那個被老師斷論一輩子無用的高個子，自從高中時候起，就不斷的是獎學金的得主和保送升學名單上的常客
那個被他批為不會讀書的胖呆，現在是某某知名雜誌的專業攝影師
那各被他天天找碴的男生，現在是小有成就的服裝設計師
那個他戲謔並取名為「阿狗」的男生 現在是各成功的超級Sales!
……. 一些他段論不會有出息的學生都成了頂天立地的社會中間份子
而我在不斷的尋求肯定中 自信的勇敢的走著我自己的生活…..
我想知道 那個被他叫上台算數學而算不對因而挨他扯著頭法粗魯的被扯下台的女生 現在好嗎?? 恨不恨他還是早早將她的童年所入不堪回首的回憶中
「粗心大意，聰明不用功；夜郎自大，好高騖遠。」這是我在國小五年級除了獎狀以外得到的評語。那樣的年紀，屬於快樂與歡笑的年紀我開始被貼上了這個在也從心頭抹不去的痕跡.
拿著有如被叛了罪狀的「學期成績單」回家， 心裡早知道一定又會挨一噸了罵。那樣的年齡，總覺得父母不論多了解自己，「老師」仍然處著崇高的地位！父母在面對老師對自己的小孩的管教不論是多麼苛刻或是不當的批評，都一並欣然接受並視為是對孩子好的管教。 那是屬於一個普遍來說全民「尊師重道」的年代，在那年代師恩重如山不論老師多不當的教導都是為理所當然，然而我不是要推翻這些尊師重道的教條 這是人人都該有的一種美德 雖然我不認為那位老師是否遵守其「重道」的美德做到「有教無類」或是兒-----
只是這麼多年來， 我仍然不經然的經為某些觸動，掉回了那高年級生活裡的陰暗地帶，或是午夜夢回中， 往往得等到清醒後才懂得自己不再受那嚴厲目光的威脅。
我不知道別的同學得到什麼評語但事自從那一天起我的心理永允烙著這四具我永遠無法遁逃的罪名
問問自己
心頭想想
我真的恨那一位老師嗎?
其實也不是
我恨那應該是快樂而不受威脅的童年有抹黑黑的烏雲